Three of a kind.

Some say in a life time you only fall in love once, and it's the most beautiful thing in the world. I don't know if i've ever felt love, but if i have there are two people I love, is it possible to love two people, two brilliat and beautiful people. I always thought my life would be diffrent, but it's not its no where near how I wanted it to be. Loving two people is so hard. Ones creative, damaged and so difficult.. but the most perfect and misunderstood person i've ever known. The other is funny and charming, i've loved them both for as long as I can remmber, it's the kind of love that gives you butterflies, makes you blush and almost do anything for them. They were my bestfriends. I think about them both often. It's probabley just child hood crushes.. I believe I am incabable of love. Maybe I believe i'm not worthy of such a thing. Or maybe i'm afraid of being hurt, or simply just not good enough. I've often wondered what it would be like to be a diffrent person, and have no recognition of my own life. Some say to be in love you must learn to love yourself or no one will ever love you, if this is true then it completely makes sense, because I most deffinetly do not love myself. Why can't it just be the three of us.

"those who have something nasty to say about women who are built like me … women who have been picked on, women whose husbands put them down, women at work or girls at school – I have one thing to say to you: Kiss my fat ass.” Tyra Banks.

In a world where the people who claim to love you the most are the ones who break your heart, in a world where your bestfriend can become your worst enemy. In one single momment everything you lived for can disapear, vanish right before your eyes.. Like all you ever thought you standed for never mattered. People say not to hold grudges and that you should forgive and not over react. It's the real people who act in the momment and let there emotions go. There the people who act not plan, the people with no regrets once this life is over. It's not about being right or wrong it's about saying how you feel. Never lie. Never cheat. Never mislead. Think with your brain, your better judge ment. Even if your heart is screaming one thing and your mind another, you can't have both. Be carful what you chose, because in this life time there are no other chances. You have one shot, one. Just because your breathing doesn't mean your living. Don't aim to please others first. Be honest be you, and people will respect you. No one likes a liar. All I've learned is be so careful who you trust, who you put your hopes and your dreams into. It takes years to build up trust and litterly seconds to break it. Count on yourself, love yourself, believe in yourself because your the only one who's garenteed not to break your own heart.

My favourite movies! LOVE them!

Fools Gold

The Hangover

Now and Then

Jurassic Park

Sex and the city

The yaya sisterhood

Grease

About last night

Into the blue

The banger sisters

The virgin suicide

Grind your teeth; rip your hair out; fight till the death; passionate lust. Thats your kind of love, it's not knowing whats going to happen next. Being scared to lose you, wanting to run away together. God, I hate to love you, Love to hate you. Your perfect but so wrong. I can't breath, I can't move. I can't escape you, nor do I wan't to. It's pushing me into a wall, jamming me into a corner, locking me up and throwing away the key. It's a prison baby. With your heart of stone, my walls of steal we make somthing unbelievable, undeniable and unpredictible. It's so contagious. It's almost like nothing can stop us. You scare me, you amaze me. Lets throw down one last time, forget why we wouldnt work and how imfamous we are and just love for tonight. I wan't to keep you in this momment forever. Your so cold, your giving me the chills.

How about a game of truth or dare, I dare you to tell the truth and you dare me to believe you. Could I honestly ever trust you, probabley not. We just don't work, I don't think we ever could.. even if we tried.. tried our hardest. Your just not right for me. In all honesty maybe i'm not right for you either. I love not talking to you, pretty much as much as I love talking to you. It's not right how we argue over every little thing, It's not right how you have the ability to make me wan't to hurt you. It's going to be hard to get past this. I as a human being cannot take anymore, I've had my share of bullshit, and i'm done.

As people we always wan't what we can't have. What if just for one single day, we got everything we wanted. Every single thing we asked for just apeared. What would you ask for? Would you ask for a life to be brought back, money, fame or love? Just twenty four hours to wish for anything you wan't. We would still wan't more, wouldnt we? Us people just can't get enough. Nothing is ever good enough.