To my first love,

you broke my heart.. ripped it wide open. I loved everything about you, Needed you. I fell in love with you 5 years ago, the very first week of knowing you, I fell for you. When I see you now, it all comes back, every memory, touch and laugh comes racing through my mind, as if it was happening all over again. I swear you were the first. Im not sure what love is, but I know what was with you, made me happy, made me want to be the best i could be for you and do whatever you wanted. Id bend over back words for you. We faught, never talked again, pissed each other off. You came to me one year later "I miss you. I miss everything, all the good times, I want to see you." If only it was that simple baby. You're so perfect and absolutley beautiful, and I swear no matter what you do to me, I could never take those words back. I loved you, truly. I feel it even now, when I see you from a distance, We're on some kind of deeper level. Some kind of right, somthing pure. I miss you, I miss us. I miss five years ago, I miss who I use to be. When I look at you, I see me, I see me five years ago, and how I was crazy over you, being at school when you wouldn't talk to me, and crying in the batheroom stall telling my bestfriend how much I love you, needed you. I still do, You walk by me to this day and nudge me in the hall or say my name and give me the head nod, Somtimes I wish you'd just hug me, and tell me you miss me, and how much I mean to you, like you use to. Tell me how Im the realest person you've ever met, tell me how funny and cool I am, tell me how i'm your bestfriend and you love me. But you just smile, somtimes I wonder if you can see it in my eyes.